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How do you survive your challenging path?
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A friend suggested that 2012 is just a window opening whereafter there will be plenty left to do. I feel this is a more realistic approach as well. Perhaps by then there will be enough supportive forces to help all those billions of people who hav...
Thanks, good to know I'm not the only one who is hanging in the air right now and feeling empty... I know some are but they are all lightworkers and so I don't identify that well with them a lot of the time. I also feel I need to move as there is ...
I do know how you feel. My path isn't easy-- I've always been a minority, even among my own kind. And THAT is a tough pill to swallow! But even with that, I have to be who I am, and if it means that I have to take all the lumps that go with it, so...
I wrote this about four years ago, so it may not match my present views completely. But it's something on what I have felt myself to be. I'm sure I could come up with something more enlightening now, but let this be an example nonetheless...
I've...
Hello everyone! I'm not sure where or how to start... I am interested to know how others have survived their path. It seems to me that some of us have taken on a lot, maybe even more than we could chew. I don't know if anyone here feels that way, ...
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- At 10:41pm on March 10, 2009,
Mai'ani Silverstar said…
- Welcome to the group! It's pretty quiet here, but I hope to see you often and interact!
Much love,
Mai
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- About Me:
- My intuitions about the nature of reality came into full bloom when I realized that the spirit world really does exist. After that followed an intense time of research which established my worldview. I found that I had a strong intuitive understanding of things.
After 1999 followed a phase during which I had to deal with emotions that I had started to dig out a few years earlier. I think I was quite reluctant to do this, but I knew it had to be done. During this time I tried to uncover my own shadows or anything else that was in the way of greater inner peace. I don't have inner peace yet but I can't think of anything more to change within myself that would be in my power right now. Not being entirely sure whether I'm projecting anything negative outward or not is disconcerting. I found at this time that I had an uncanny ability to trigger other people's shadow selves (the denied subpersonalities) without any conscious intention on my part. It usually happens as I'm minding my own business or simply expressing disconsent with someone; all of a sudden I'm under attack and being violently patronized. I've been calling myself a shadow worker and lately shadow triggerer for a long time since I seem to be battling with shadows more often than not. I've a strong belief in the necessity to clear out the darker aspects of the human collective and despite my exhaustion I am always prepared to act as a warrior and fight injustice of all kinds when presented to me.
I've been feeling very much alone and very much misunderstood. I have a very deep desire to connect with other people in a meaningful way but find it next to impossible, as I seem to belong nowhere. The feeling of being utterly homeless is one of the harder things to deal with. I feel close to the earth and am curious about human beings (I believe I am supposed to observer human behaviour), but I don't quite feel part of them. I hope and believe that this is my last time on this level of existance.
I also have a condition that probably originated from heightened sensitivity when I was a child. It increases the difficulties but also helps trigger other people's need to be patronizing and disrespectful. I have also had to learn about limitations, while I really believe that my true self is limitless.
- My activities and interests:
- First and foremost I'm an artist who employs symbolism in order to mirror whatever is going on inside of myself but also on the outside. I also write and hope to publish a book about humanity's darker aspects and problems to communicate. It also features my artwork. I'm half way through it but have had trouble with the motivation at late. The idea of being a MIRROR onto others is very strong with me.
I also enjoy photography (seeing beauty in the most unexpected places), alternative music, cats, travelling, camping and hiking to the extent that it's possible for me, and interior decoration.
I believe in and support BEAUTY, HONESTY, OPENNESS, THE ABOLITION OF SECRECY, COMPASSION.
My website is http://www.vivimaricarpelan.com and main blog is http://www.vivi-mari.blogspot.com. At lightworkers I am http://www.lightworkers.org/MsMysteryArt but maybe not for long.
My main degree is a Masters in the science of religion and my thesis was about the New Age.
- What is a lightwarrior to you, and your role in being such?
- I resonate to some extent with light workers yet I don't seem to fit the bill well enough and find myself ignored and avoided by them. Normal human beings don't really seem to resonate with me either.
Since reading about the shadow as defined by C.G. Jung long ago I realized revealing the denied aspects of humans was probably part of my purpose. Since it's such an ungrateful task I've been discouraged lately, though. There's an endless stream of people coming into my life only to be revealed by me, and it's not nice to become increasingly unpopular. I wonder at all this and worry that I'm on a path that is not as constructive as I would hope. At the time being I'm not sure what to do or where to turn.
Still I am becoming more and more perceptive and discerning; no disharmony goes unnoticed. My basic nature is nonetheless kind, considerate and empathic, however teamed with a fiery disposition, dissidence and tendency to rebel against injustice and stupidity. All this leads me to believe that I'm a lightwarrior or something of the sort.
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I wrote this about four years ago, so it may not match my present views completely. But it's something on what I have felt myself to be. I'm sure I could come up with something more enlightening now, but let this be an example nonetheless...
I've been feeling really rotten for a few days but was pretty upset that a good friend suggested anti-depressants. So that I should walk around like an uncreative zombie? How can people who supposedly care for you give such simplistic advice? Especially whe… Continue
I've been feeling really rotten for a few days but was pretty upset that a good friend suggested anti-depressants. So that I should walk around like an uncreative zombie? How can people who supposedly care for you give such simplistic advice? Especially whe… Continue
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